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[Dec. 22nd, 2007|11:15 pm]
Thousands of moments
 It feels good to unload this.





Everyone's disappointed.

They're disappointed that I didn't show at the cookie exchange party.
They're disappointed that I cannot get over everything that happened two years ago.
They're disappointed that I cannot find it in myself to let go of everything.
They're disappointed that I didn't choose them.
They're disappointed that I chose him.
They're disappointed that I'm moving
They're disappointed that I didn't show at the Multi-Cultural Thanksgiving Dinner.
They're disappointed that I'm choosing to live my life.
They're disappointed that I'm not sacrificing everything for them.
They're disappointed that I didn't choose their side, and that I defended one of my good friends.

They're disappointed in my decisions.
They're disappointed in me.



I find it odd that my boyfriend doesn't even really acknowledge that we're dating.
I find it strange that I'm closer with my pretend brother than my best friends, aforementioned boyfriend and virtually every member of my family.
I find it strange that I've neglected both my aunt and grandmother in their greatest times of need because of self-preservation.

I find it strange that when I need to talk to someone the most, there's no one to be found.
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[User Picture]From: lovinjc4e
2007-12-24 02:37 am (UTC)
why can't we be disappointed when we don't get to see you?
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